1 | German: Waldeinsamkeit
A feeling of solitude, being alone in the woods and a connectedness to nature.
I too easily fall in love with passing scenes I happen to catch while on the road. As they move into-out-of my car window.
From right to left.
Over and over and over.
It will be a reel of content, unnoticed until all of a sudden something sticks out, flickers into focus, and then... it's gone.
But that's all it takes.
A brief moment to notice an idiosyncrasy or odd detail that will lead to a little roadside love affair.
Sometimes these brief vignettes make such an impression on me that I can't shake them for years, even though I only experienced them for a moment.
I suppose it comes from having eyes like a shutter and a mind like a lens.
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A few photos of a little roadside love affair of a house from one of Meagan and I's eastern shore treks a few weeks ago.
See more from these trips here, here, here and here too.
familiarity breeds indifference at times.
a conscious practicing of awareness and appreciation is in order to not take that which is comfortable and familiar for granted.
my scope of experience is in calling this place home.
measuring the distance between my center and when and where i can be in this place is a constant recycling thought like the consistency of waves against a shore.
a kind of latitude.
Photos taken in Oxford, Maryland around this time last year.
A little waterfront town I will always be in love with.
Photo by Meagan Abell
A very dear friend of mine recently asked me:
"What do you do when you feel like you're spreading yourself too thin but have opportunities that are hard to say no to? There's a lot going on which is a good thing, but I'm feeling overwhelmed."
Oh boy did I have thoughts on this subject.
I used to be the queen of doing too much.
Over committing myself, trying to do it all... I worked myself to death (no really, I would literally get sick with how stressed and busy I always was).
And so when I was writing her a little note about it, I realized I had a lot more to say on the matter than would fit in a text. So I decided to make a list. A list I decided to also share with you. Just in case any of you lovely people also need a little prompting or inspiration as to how to get out from under the weight of all of the things you're trying to do all at once.
Or maybe you're not doing too many things, but you don't feel content and you aren't doing the right things. This list speaks to that as well.
We are not meant to overwork ourselves, to be stressed, to be always be running around like chickens with their heads cut off. If you're like this, something needs to change.
Delegate.
Ask for help.
Cut something out.
Take time away for yourself.
Put something on the back burner.
Say no.
I would really love to hear your thoughts on this topic friends.
Let's help encourage one another to cultivate a healthier way of living!
xo
What To Do When You're Overwhelmed & Spreading Yourself Too Thin: A 7 Part Guide by A Girl Who Used To Be The Queen Of Doing Too Much
1. Say no.
Just do it. Start saying no. To everything. Okay maybe not everything, but a lot of things. Because you might need to prune and pull back from more than is initially necessary so you have the clearest head possible to start evaluating your commitments. I've found its easiest to start with as clean and empty a slate as possible and add things back as is needed and called for.
2. Make a list.
Write down every single thing you are committing your time and energy to activity/job/extracurricular/hobby wise.
3. Pray over the list.
If praying isn't your thing, just get yourself nice and quiet and really and truly ask yourself what of these listed things you really need to do. Sometimes there are things you may want to do but you don't need to do. We can't do everything we want sometimes. Ask what it is You're supposed to do. What's priority. What's best for right now. What's best for later. What's best for never even. Also, sometimes it can seem like you're doing more than you are or stressed more than you need to be, but once you clearly write it down it can free up your mind and help you focus and discern what it is you need to get done.
4. Trust your instinct/gut/intuition/discernment.
The more I practice this, the more I almost instantaneously know whether or not I should do something when an opportunity presents itself. Even for things as simple as someone asking me to get coffee. If I said yes to everyone who asked me to get coffee or to hang out or to go to an event, I would literally never be home.
And I love my home.
Having time to myself to recharge and rejuvenate is really essential for me so that I can be fully present in the other areas of my life when it's most important.
5. When new opportunities come business wise- Again, trust your gut.
And say no to most things. I used to say yes to every interview, every feature, every photo opportunity, every collaboration, every shop, every meet up, every craft show and market... But it very quickly became way way way too much. And I realized that most of them weren't even as great as they promised to be, or were worth all of the time and work I put into them for what I got in return. Granted, you need a season of this perhaps to have some different learning experiences, figure out what it is you want and where you want to go. But once you've figured that out, stop saying yes to everything.
Say yes to things that make you want to get out of bed in the morning because you're so excited to be apart of them. Things that you want to do first before all the other things on your to-do list. Things that align with your vision of who you are, who you want to be, where you want to go.
Above all: Do not be afraid of missing out by saying no.
That's living in fear.
That's not who you are.
Opportunities will always be there.
Put the important things first.
6. Figure out your important things.
For me: Family, my own well being (health, mentally and physically which also encompasses my passions, dreams and goals) and my friends. Not always in that order but that's honestly what it comes down to for me. The people in my life. I will always put the important people in my life first and before activities and jobs (within reason of course).
This doesn't always look how you would think though. For instance: A great job opportunity that will cause me to miss a friends event will earn me enough extra money to work less the following week so I can take a day off to help my Dad with something important. Or, by skipping a family event because I need to have some alone time after an extra busy work week, which will allow for me to be present and better able to love and serve them at an important get together next time. You get the idea. Just figure out what the important things are in your life to you. Maybe even what your core values are. That honestly was the most helpful aspect for me in figuring out what it is I needed to do with my time and energy.
7. You do not have to explain yourself to people.
You do not have to go into an in depth explanation for everything and everyone you say no to. First of all, most people don't expect that (or a lot of the time even care). Second of all, the people who love and get you, are going to understand. And if they don't.... that's on them, not you.
As long as Your motives are out of love and doing what's best for you and those important people in your life... you're golden.
Don't over think it.
these are a few film photos my friend meagan took of me around this time last year and they make me excited for warm weather and books.
one of my favorite combinations.
summer is coming.
which means reading. lots of reading.
despite the fact that i have long since been out of school of any kind, and so my summers are no longer regulated and pre-appointed as "free time", i still somehow find it easiest and most natural to read more in the middle-of-the-year-months.
as much as i love curling up by a fire on a wintry day with a novel or snuggling under covers late at night with a biography from whichever musician/artist i'm currently obsessed with, i still find i most often read on beaches in the sun.
on boats in the wind.
on grass in the shade.
which can definitely be done in the aforementioned chilly weather, but is much more pleasant if i'm not overly stiff and stuffed with wearing 45 layers to keep warm.
last week i went sailing and read four books over as many days. a feat i somehow am never able to manage anywhere other than on a boat. it was glorious. i've found that that's truly one of the top reasons i love sailing. with being on a boat day after day, there are few distractions from technology (especially when your phone breaks... eep!) and the outside world and there's almost endless blocks of time to be still, slow down, and get lost amongst the pages of a book.
i've set myself a lofty goal of reading 50 books this year... we'll see if i make it. but regardless, i'm just happy to once again be in a season that allows for my book worm tendencies to come about more naturally.
books i'm looking forward to reading include...
ani difranco: verses
m train by patti smith
tales of beatnik glory by ed sanders
unabrow: misadventures of a late bloomer by una lamarche
the gorgeous nothing's: emily dickinson's envelope poems
the year of magical thinking by joan didion
east of eden by john steinbeck
and at least half of the 302938 books i have on dorthea lange...
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what about you?
do you have any reading goals for the year? what's on your reading list?
So excited to announce that I will be teaching a knitting class hosted by the lovely collaborative talent that is Richmond's own Campfire & Co. as a part of their Good Vibes Only workshop series!
The workshop will take place at Campfire & Co.'s studio, The Marvin Lang Building, at 1623 W. Broad Street from 6–8 pm on March 22, 2016. Plenty of street parking is available along Broad so don't let that deter you from coming!
The class will include all of the supplies you need to make a pattern I'm working on just for you guys which includes some beautiful ethically sourced yarn (Instagram preview here!), needles, a knitting guide and a super awesome Blaze New Trails tote bag from Campfire & Co.
There of course will also be some snacks and drinks because, let's be real, we're going to make this a party.
I was also interviewed over on the Campfire & Co. blog, so be sure to check that out as well!
Okay, what are you waiting for? Sign up here!
There are a limited amount of tickets remaining so get yours before we sell out!
Hope to see you there.
xo
Meagan and I have a mutual love for old motel signs (case in point), and so when we saw this abandoned motel on our eastern shore excursion last week, we of course decided to stop and snap a few pictures.
Don't know what urbexing is?
Check out an explanation in this post here as well as other posts in The Urbexing Diaries.
I’d like to walk there again. It was so lonely— a nice kind of loneliness, and all grass and clover and soft sea air. — The Voyage of the Dawn Treader by C.S. Lewis
Shirt courtesy of Colo/Palo, photographed in The Burren, Ireland
Photo by Meagan Abell
My alone feels so good, I’ll only have you if you’re sweeter than my solitude. —Warsan Shire
Solitude.
This is something I'm accustomed to.
Growing up we, my siblings and I, were often left alone for hours on end.
It wasn't neglect, it was an allowance.
An allowance to discover, to play, to explore, to create, to be.
I know that I wouldn't be the person I am today if I hadn't been allowed that time of self discovery and becoming, at such a young age.
I was put in the creative mindset simply by being left alone. I had to learn to figure things out on my own, be resourceful, come up with new solutions to problems and create things of my own accord and so I did.
As I've grown older I realize how rare a quality and ability that is, and as a result it's one I'm more so thankful for possessing.
I don't shy away from doing things by myself. Traveling, eating out, going to the movies, exploring, shopping, going to concerts, and many other pastimes that often are seen as a you-do-this-with-someone sort of activity.
I even live alone, which is something I've discovered is such a foreign and strange idea for so many people. Something I was unaware of until I did it.
I'm not saying living alone is for everyone, it's definitely not, and personalities and preferences differ greatly from person to person. But I do think it's important to learn how to be alone. To enjoy it. Because who's with you more often than... well, you? If you don't like spending time with yourself, why would others? This is a cheesy way to look at it sure, but hopefully you get my point.
I think it's an underestimated trait in a person. To be content in ones own skin and abilities to the extent of not needing to rely on others for your centering and "okay-ness" and sense of worth.
Of course you can swing too far in that direction and then be closed off from people, relationships, and community completely which is something I'm definitely not abdicating for by any means.
However, I think the stronger and more sure of yourself you are alone, the more capable you are of adding value to those relationships and communities you are in.
Because it's not others, their presence or opinions, that make up our worth and value. And I think we can often forget that when we're constantly surrounded by people.
"Curiously, and importantly, mastering the art of solitude doesn’t make us more antisocial but, to the contrary, better able to connect. By being intimate with our own inner life— that frightening and often foreign landscape that philosopher Martha Nussbaum so eloquently urged us to explore despite our fear— frees us to reach greater, more dimensional intimacy with others."
The above quote is from this article on how to be alone which I ask you to please please please read.
It has far more eloquent and making-more-sense thoughts than mine on this subject. It's one I wholeheartedly agree with and re-read often ever since coming across it.
This quote on cherishing your solitude is one I blogged three years ago but also still relevant.
Feel free to share your thoughts on any of this.
I'd love to hear them.
